Isaiah 60:1-2
Arise, shine, for your light has come and the glory of the Lord has risen upon you. For behold darkness shall cover the earth, and thick darkness the peoples; but the Lord will arise upon you and his glory will be see upon you.
Two weeks ago I fell apart. Collapsing under a pool of negative thinking and burdens that I could not bear. I wanted to be done, I was tired. We've all experienced those times and they will come back in all the time that we are being transformed. About a week later, as I pushed to hear the Lord, pushed to feel the Lord, I finally realized what I had to do. I simply had to cry out and say," I need Your help!" With every last drop of faith I cried out those words, little did I know how much love, grace and provision would overwhelm me.
As I had mentioned before, funds for Thailand had fell through and I was very upset. I'd almost backed out completely knowing that money would've had to be paid either way. Even though my actions did not show my faith, the Holy Spirit reminded me of the Father and that He would never leave or forsake His children in any situation. That was key, that I know the Father, I know His character and that's all I needed in order to believe.
I missed Sunday church that weekend but went this last weekend. We sat down after amazing worship; it was the first time in awhile that I really felt the Holy Spirit and worshipped in rest and peace, talking to Him and hearing Him speak. That would have been enough. As we sat down and were about to take offering the Pastor called on anyone who was having financial problems to stand up. My heart dropped and I did not want to stand but my pride had controlled me for too long and dug me into my pit. I stood. They prayed and announced that if anyone felt led to give money they could do so after service. I cried. I had been broken, my pride had suffered in the best way possible. I sat down hoping that they would forget me, such a silly wish, God does not forget.
As we closed out the service, the Pastor asked once again that those who stood wave their hands so that people could bless them. Ugh, another blow to my pride but as soon as my hand came down a man passed by me slipping money into my hand. In seconds another had come, and another and another, until my pockets were full. I felt nothing but utter humility. They did not know, nor did they ask what I needed it for. They did not question nor did they hesitate. So that is what the body looks like, a people who run after God sharing in the experience, joy and provision together. God so loves His bride.
I am learning the words "Help Jesus!" is the only prayer I need in any and all situations. In a world where independence is glorified and encouraged, God looks to destroy it. Some of us are forced to be independent because we have felt abandoned by family or friends or the church. God has not abandoned, He is asking that you be dependent on Him because in the end he alone sustains us!
"Whom have I in heaven but thee? and there is none upon earth that I desire beside thee"(Pslam 73:25)
Please Pray:
For our upcoming trip to Thailand that the Word and Holy Spirit would come to them in Power
For the breaking of strongholds and bondage to the burdens that weigh heavy on us so as to keep us from our full potential here on Earth.
For His will to be done on earth as it is in heaven
Arise, shine, for your light has come and the glory of the Lord has risen upon you. For behold darkness shall cover the earth, and thick darkness the peoples; but the Lord will arise upon you and his glory will be see upon you.
Two weeks ago I fell apart. Collapsing under a pool of negative thinking and burdens that I could not bear. I wanted to be done, I was tired. We've all experienced those times and they will come back in all the time that we are being transformed. About a week later, as I pushed to hear the Lord, pushed to feel the Lord, I finally realized what I had to do. I simply had to cry out and say," I need Your help!" With every last drop of faith I cried out those words, little did I know how much love, grace and provision would overwhelm me.
As I had mentioned before, funds for Thailand had fell through and I was very upset. I'd almost backed out completely knowing that money would've had to be paid either way. Even though my actions did not show my faith, the Holy Spirit reminded me of the Father and that He would never leave or forsake His children in any situation. That was key, that I know the Father, I know His character and that's all I needed in order to believe.
I missed Sunday church that weekend but went this last weekend. We sat down after amazing worship; it was the first time in awhile that I really felt the Holy Spirit and worshipped in rest and peace, talking to Him and hearing Him speak. That would have been enough. As we sat down and were about to take offering the Pastor called on anyone who was having financial problems to stand up. My heart dropped and I did not want to stand but my pride had controlled me for too long and dug me into my pit. I stood. They prayed and announced that if anyone felt led to give money they could do so after service. I cried. I had been broken, my pride had suffered in the best way possible. I sat down hoping that they would forget me, such a silly wish, God does not forget.
As we closed out the service, the Pastor asked once again that those who stood wave their hands so that people could bless them. Ugh, another blow to my pride but as soon as my hand came down a man passed by me slipping money into my hand. In seconds another had come, and another and another, until my pockets were full. I felt nothing but utter humility. They did not know, nor did they ask what I needed it for. They did not question nor did they hesitate. So that is what the body looks like, a people who run after God sharing in the experience, joy and provision together. God so loves His bride.
I am learning the words "Help Jesus!" is the only prayer I need in any and all situations. In a world where independence is glorified and encouraged, God looks to destroy it. Some of us are forced to be independent because we have felt abandoned by family or friends or the church. God has not abandoned, He is asking that you be dependent on Him because in the end he alone sustains us!
"Whom have I in heaven but thee? and there is none upon earth that I desire beside thee"(Pslam 73:25)
Please Pray:
For our upcoming trip to Thailand that the Word and Holy Spirit would come to them in Power
For the breaking of strongholds and bondage to the burdens that weigh heavy on us so as to keep us from our full potential here on Earth.
For His will to be done on earth as it is in heaven
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